Thursday, August 13, 2009


I love my children. I would give my life for them and I tell them those things regularly. So, why is it that when I ask them (ok one of them in particular) to do something that seems out of the ordinary, he asks me if - it's safe, OK, alright, or whatever else he thinks to ask?

Haven't I told him that I love him and will protect him and provide for him? Haven't I always done that?

And then comes the whisper in my ear, "I tell you the same things, my child. Why do you question me? Haven't I been consistent? Haven't I always provided, protected and been there for you?"

And then I remember that my son, like myself, is a sinner filled with doubt and questions. He asks these questions of me just like I ask them of God.

Still learning........

Monday, August 10, 2009

Happy Belated Birthday....

To my oldest son who turned 10 in July. I cannot believe that 9 years ago we were celebrating your 1st birthday after returning home from Russia with you a mere month earlier. You are my hero. You have endured more hardships in your young life than many will in a lifetime and you approach them with willingness, trust (in your dad and I) and with the most beautiful smile and optimism.

We are often reminded by others that you, my son, were blessed to come to live here with us. Leaving behind the uncertain life that faced you in Russia. I would contend, however, that we have been far more blessed in our life as your parents.

Because of you, my son, I know what bravery looks like. How encouragement should be delivered. How we should celebrate our small victories as much as the large ones. That a hug and a smile can brighten the dullest of days and that giving up is never an option. I look forward to what God has planned for you in the year to come and beyond. You are a treasure!!

What I know....

my life is often like a circus
my children are wonderful and I learn a lot from them
I have a husband who is patient and loves me as I am
That if I'm constantly planning the future, I might miss the beauty of today
I may be 41 but I wake each day feeling 18 (but thankfully wiser)
Contentment is a tough place to hang out but it's easier when I take a deep breath and am still
God is always good, always present and loves me (the bible tells me so)
That I have been blessed beyond measure and given more than I could ever have dreamt of in my life